teh suck

[laceblade]

I don't even know how to describe the rabid angst I felt this weekend. I don't know if it stemmed for boredom or from something else. It could very well be just boredom - I didn't do much at all, and the stuff I did do was pretty boring. I'm proud of me for not blogging while in full-fledge angst mode, though. My journal got some colorful entries, though. :P Also, I worked on Ghost Hunters and sent one of my characters to get almost arrested, and another for a therapy session. (New stuff isn't posted yet.) Buuuuuut yeah. I pray to God that I don't get that angsty again. It sucked a lot, I tell you what.

Maybe I just need to get better at calling people. Like, Gretchen totally would have watched Buffy with me. I don't know. Halfway through Saturday, though, I was so far gone in angst that I refused to leave the house for anyone but Antoine, and we literally did nothing but sit around on his couch. I guess having the cramps from hell didn't help much either.

My goal for the summer is to rid my personality of all aspects of passivity, and to never let it seep back in again.

Mom and I had a bonding moment today when we realized that this mysetry series that she, my aunt, and my uncle like that takes place in northern Wisconsin is being published by Bleakhouse, the book publishing place where I'm interning on Mondays and Fridays this summer. Yay! My mom only reads mysteries, which are usually a little too formulaic for my tastes. Maybe I'll finish reading Victoria Houston's Dead Madonna so that we'll have something to talk about.

Thoughts on Buffy, Season 1
So, I know that in Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Sunnydale High is supposed to be like, everyone's collective memory of high school. But still, every episode, weird shit goes down because the town is on top of the Hellmouth. Wouldn't you move away from the school if like, any 3 of those events took place in your child's school, let alone 7 seasons' worth?

Gretchen, I know you left a comment saying you didn't find Angel all that appealing, and I think I've narrowed down my attraction to him. Like Steph, there is the obvious "made of sex" factor, but there is also ANGST. I am so shallow when it comes to fictional characters. At least with real people, I'm much harder to please.

I know that the series started in the mid-1990s when such things were popular, but could Buffy's skirts be any shorter? I'm glad styles have lengthened once again. Not that my clothes are ever in style, but, you know. Moreso than less-so is good.

I love that in the episode of everyone's worst nightmare, Giles' is that he can't read. LOL, that is totally my worst nightmare! The rest of that episode was really illuminating and sad, though. :/ sadface.

Since I know I'll be watching all 7 seasons, I'll keep a tally of favorite characters at the end of each season. Right now, favorite characters are: Buffy, Angel

Comments

[sasha-feather.livejournal.com]

I get angsty sometimes too when I have nothing set out to do. You can call me if you want-- cell #319-430-3897

--Sandy

[mystickeeper.livejournal.com]

Oh man! I forgot that some of my Wiscon friends are in Madison like me. I suck.

[la-luna-llena.livejournal.com]

I wonder if the weather is accelerating the angst. I know a couple of people who've been unusually anxious this weekend.

p.p.s.

[la-luna-llena.livejournal.com]

what kind of work are you doing at Bleak House?

Re: p.p.s.

[mystickeeper.livejournal.com]

It's an unpaid internship. So far, what I do is read a lot. We open the mail and answer submissions with "send us the first 3 chapters/the rest of the novel" or "ummm, no." Most of the day is spent reading submissions. Truth be told, as I only work Mondays and Fridays and there's been some wonky scheduling, today was only my third day.

Re: p.p.s.

[la-luna-llena.livejournal.com]

oh, then you are a "slush pile reader." but of course, your resume will say "Editorial Intern." :D

I did that at Spinster's Ink many years ago, and I really liked it. Mostly I liked being around people who understood what I meant when I said, "Ack, this is a Griffin and Sabine knockoff."

[littlebutfierce]

Did you go to the Why Is the Universe So Damn White? panel? They were talking about the Buffyverse & how it being uber-white but being in Southern California was ridiculous, but then someone said it was probably that all the POCs saw the scary shit going down & all hopped on the next bus out of town. Hahahaha!

I never could get past Angel's huuuuge forehead for a while, but then somehow he got more attractive to me.

My goal for the summer is to rid my personality of all aspects of passivity, and to never let it seep back in again.

That sounds like a fine goal, one I could surely do to adopt as well...

[mystickeeper.livejournal.com]

I didn't go to the panel, but I had heard about it and thought it sounded interesting (and in retrospect, I don't think I liked the panel that I did end up going to).

Hopefully it's a goal I can achieve.....I wish you luck, too!