the worst is over....oh wait

[laceblade]

yes, now i see
of course
stupid fucking me
thinking we were okay again
thinking that when you
left lyrics on my fridge
maybe you were trying to say
you were sorry

after you held my hand
so i wasn't afraid
and told me to call
if i felt like i couldn't
take it

that was all a lie

somehow i missed the fact
that those things
aren't friendship
those things must be
something else
something elusive
that has no name
that pretends to be
friendship

you say it's me.
before i thought it was me
caring
but now i see no,
it's just me

and i can't for the life of me
think of any one realization
that would be more disheartening

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hows college going btw? like any of your classes? hope things are going well for ya!

[mystickeeper.livejournal.com]

College is alright so far. I've had 2 out of my 4 classes and I like them. It's slow making friends, though. :P

[rapidfate.livejournal.com]

really? are you staying in the dorms? thats an easy way to make friends.

at the college I want to attened [ NAU ] They have freshmen connection programs.

I hope things start picking up for ya!!
are you taking anything other than core classes this semester?

[mystickeeper.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm staying in the dorms. But most of the girls on my floor leave their doors open a lot. I dunno. I'm hoping to make friends through clubs and whatever.

This semester I'm taking Spanish 204, Western Cultures: Lit and the Arts, Intro to Global Cultures, and Intro to International Relations.