the worst is over....oh wait

[laceblade]

yes, now i see
of course
stupid fucking me
thinking we were okay again
thinking that when you
left lyrics on my fridge
maybe you were trying to say
you were sorry

after you held my hand
so i wasn't afraid
and told me to call
if i felt like i couldn't
take it

that was all a lie

somehow i missed the fact
that those things
aren't friendship
those things must be
something else
something elusive
that has no name
that pretends to be
friendship

you say it's me.
before i thought it was me
caring
but now i see no,
it's just me

and i can't for the life of me
think of any one realization
that would be more disheartening