Trying to start again

[laceblade]

Life is so weird. I feel like all I ever do is eat food, talk, and wash myself. I wish that I was brave enough to start writing again, but I don't think I am yet. How can a person possibly slow down their life enough to write? Whenever I'm not regularly surrounded by people, I get moody and lonely. But when my life is a whirlwind like it is now, my mind never slows down enough to permit me to translate all my thoughts to words and write them down.

I had a lot of grand plans for myself as a child. I wanted to be a published author, to ride a horse, to fight in a war I believed in, to learn to dance, and to be admired by many people. To date, none of these things have happened.

I'm not sure what else I wanted to say.

Comments

[sasha-feather.livejournal.com]

Is there a certain time during the day when your mind is quieter? Late at night has always been a good writing time for me. Also, you can channel some of that moodiness into writing if you can make it work.

Riding a horse and dancing are totally accomplishable goals. I'm serious about finding a stable, and if I had someone to go with I'd be a lot more likely to do it. Earning the admiration of other people...that's a goal that relies on others to fulfill. Perhaps change the phrasing--aspire to be worthy of admiration, whether you get it or not.

[mystickeeper.livejournal.com]

Not really. Once it hits a certain point at night, I'm just too tired, or so full of angst that I reach apathy. Buuuut, I should just make myself do it anyway - you're right, I can channel some of the moodiness.

I don't know anything about the world of horseback riding. What does finding a stable mean? How much money does it cost to have this as a hobby? How much just to do it once?

You have a really good point about my last goal. Worthy of admiration, indeed.

[sasha-feather.livejournal.com]

Well, since I grew up with my own horses, I'm actually not all that familiar with the world of stables either. I imagine I should just look in the phone book and call around for prices and such. I posted in madisonwi a couple weeks ago, asking about stables, and I did get a few responses, including the UW Hoofers riding group. It looks like most of these places are English-style riding, which is also something I'm not familiar with (I rode Western), but willing to try. Spirit of adventure here I come! So, it would involve 1)calling and asking about options and prices, including lessons, 2)driving to the stable, and 3) riding! I have to get over my telephone aversion a little bit, but I'll put number 1 on my to-do list.

[la-luna-llena.livejournal.com]

you still have time to do these things!

[mystickeeper.livejournal.com]

This is true. What the hell.