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Let's air out the closet, shall we?
Alright. I was going to wait until the next time I actually wrote something to put in here, but it's been bothering me, so I'll just get it out and it can be done with.
I don't think that all of you are fully aware that this LJ of mine is not my journal - my blog is. (Blog being located at http://theviewfromnow.blogspot.com if you're interested) This LJ is for stories and poetry, and the like. Now, while I am not feeling depressed for the majority of my existence, it is true that the majority of the time that I decide to write a poem or feel the need to express myself in my LJ, I'm not feeling normal. I don't do it for attention. There are plenty of attention-grabbing whores on the internet - I'm not one of them. This LJ is here to catalog my writing. When I write, I'm depressed. Hopefully once school's done, I'll be able to write more often and therefore write when I'm not depressed.
I also just wanted everyone to know that I'm fully aware that I'm not the only person who feels this way and that yes, some of you probably think it's pathetic. I don't care what the hell you think. I know how I feel, and I know that it's healthy for me to express it. If you don't like it, then don't read it. And if it really bothers you that much, then take me off your friends list, and I won't hate you for it.
When I feel like shit and I feel so lonely I don't know what to do, oftentimes, the only thing I can think to do is write. I need to write. And I'm going to keep writing. I know that this LJ does a really poor job of painting a picture of who I am. If all you read is my LJ, then you have absolutely no idea who I am. I am a confident, sarcastic, and energetic person who's about to enter college. And occasionally, I get depressed. It doesn't make up all of who I am. It just paints the mood for a lot of my poetry and desperate writings.
So. I think that I've said all I needed to say. And I'm done now.
I don't think that all of you are fully aware that this LJ of mine is not my journal - my blog is. (Blog being located at http://theviewfromnow.blogspot.com if you're interested) This LJ is for stories and poetry, and the like. Now, while I am not feeling depressed for the majority of my existence, it is true that the majority of the time that I decide to write a poem or feel the need to express myself in my LJ, I'm not feeling normal. I don't do it for attention. There are plenty of attention-grabbing whores on the internet - I'm not one of them. This LJ is here to catalog my writing. When I write, I'm depressed. Hopefully once school's done, I'll be able to write more often and therefore write when I'm not depressed.
I also just wanted everyone to know that I'm fully aware that I'm not the only person who feels this way and that yes, some of you probably think it's pathetic. I don't care what the hell you think. I know how I feel, and I know that it's healthy for me to express it. If you don't like it, then don't read it. And if it really bothers you that much, then take me off your friends list, and I won't hate you for it.
When I feel like shit and I feel so lonely I don't know what to do, oftentimes, the only thing I can think to do is write. I need to write. And I'm going to keep writing. I know that this LJ does a really poor job of painting a picture of who I am. If all you read is my LJ, then you have absolutely no idea who I am. I am a confident, sarcastic, and energetic person who's about to enter college. And occasionally, I get depressed. It doesn't make up all of who I am. It just paints the mood for a lot of my poetry and desperate writings.
So. I think that I've said all I needed to say. And I'm done now.