|laceblade (laceblade) wrote,|
@ 2013-03-18 03:45 pm UTC
|Entry tags:||anxiety, bodies, class issues, healthcare, i hate bureaucracy|
I added up how much I would spend during 2012 based on the medical appointments & medications I'd been taking, and decided on an amount, & signed up.
Unfortunately, you can only sign up for the year in October, & once you decide how much to contribute, you can't change it.
When I signed up in October 2011, I didn't know I was going to be having surgery in January 2012.
The surgery ended up changing my body (eventually) so that I didn't need most of the medications I'd been taking.
I was able to continue spending the money until March 15, 2013. BUT. I ended up losing hundreds of dollars (almost $1k?!) that I'll never get back, simply because my estimation turned out wrong, because the needs of my body changed.
I also feel annoyed that I could not use the money to pay for the St. John's Wort I buy & take on a regular basis (actually my most expensive pill!).
I did get a massage done at GHC to help with my upper back pain, but I could have only gotten reimbursed for that if I had procured a doctor's note?
Guess who loathes doctor's appointments & interaction with medical professionals?! THIS GIRL.
Anyway. I'm glad it's over. I lost money, but now there's not someone in a room judging whether my payments are "real" or not, whether they count or not toward this $$ that was already set aside.
And I'm really fucking excited to go to acupuncture today & after the receptionist asks, "Do you need a receipt?" I can say, "no."
Once I get my last reimbursement via check, I'm really really looking forward to recycling ALL of the paper bills I've got lying around, just in case I need to ~prove~ anything.
It makes me think a lot about health & how it's paid for & who's guilted for what. Even with some of the things that could be covered, like the massage - in order to get reimbursed, it was all, "Oh I'd better have an appointment to have a doctor confirm that my pain is real & that a massage would actually help so that they'll reimburse me!" Fuck that. I booked the appointment anyway.
My provider's having some kind of thing where I could get $100 for getting a blood pressure screening & talking with someone about ~health issues.
I'm starting to figure out that sometimes, even when things might eventually save me money, it's better for my anxiety about my body & conversations about my health to say, "no, thanks."